The first thing is that this is the most I have ever struggled to write something. I haven’t mapped out what I’m going to say. My goal is to shout louder than all my previous teachings. Forget every rule I’ve told you. I am sorry you had to look at my absence as guidance. Now I will tell you what I know.
There is nothing wrong with being average. Average is safe. Blending into the crowd has saved millions of people. If you can do that, go ahead.
But if you can’t, you must accept that. The opposite of average is special. There is no less than average. There is only more. Prepare yourself, this is hard to take in: you are more than average.
You are too much of something to be average. You are too smart, too aware, too sensitive, too large. You have seen too much. You know too much already.
But you have so much more to learn.
You are a person. You are a mind. You are a body. You are a woman. You must know that in your core. Women are being treated unfairly. Women are being oppressed. Women are being hurt, killed, systematically beaten down. It is happening overseas. It is happening around the country. And it is happening to you. You must know what is happening to you.
The world wants you to be ashamed of everything that you are. You are supposed to be less than this. You are supposed to be silent. You are supposed to be pretty. You are supposed to be small. You are supposed to be obedient.
I love you too much to let you remain ignorant. Childhood will be over soon and you will not escape without scars and bruises. You will be sent out into the world already injured and the world will hope that they’ve done their job beating you into submission.
They have not broken your spirit.
Don’t you dare give them the power to do so.
I know you didn’t sign up for this and I know the draft seems cruel. It is. But you must wake up. You have to fight. You have to be a soldier.
You watched me go to war within myself. I fell for the patriarchal trap. They want you to know that you don’t meet their standards and believe you must destroy yourself as a result.
Wake up. If you are fighting yourself, you are fighting for them. You are killing your own troops.
The day you learn to point your gun at the right people, you will have learned how to survive.